Just when you thought ....

This has been a dissastrous week for me. And just when you thought things couldn't get any worse and on the verge of improving, it continued to spiral downwards. I guess situations have every bit to do with your mood (or aura). If you are giving out negative aura, the scenario will also be affected by this negative energy, and it will become worse.

And I just realised the effect of positivity and negativity. When you experience something positive, and experience something negative, both perceived to be of same importance with the same level of magnitude, you would expect yourself to be neutral/indifferent coz logically you would expect the two to cancel off one another, but in real life this is never true. You always feel it more when you experience negativity, and negativity will ALWAYS outweigh positivity.

But at least, after a couple of years in university, I realised that I'm actually OK with reading textbooks. In fact, I enjoy reading, but I dislike studying and going for exams. LOL.

Goodnight...

Today

I started my 'day' at 1pm when i was awake by a phone call, from an unfamiliar/unknown number. The 1st thing i thought of was could this be an interview call-up? I'd better get up from bed and answer this call. If this number was a number that I know, e.g. weili, then I would just answer the phone call for a while and continue sleeping. Anyways, it was an anti-climax in the end. It was a call from my dad. Full Stop.

Went to have lunch at YIH by myself coz I wanna buy ink cartridge coz my printer ran out of ink already. And I have to print out some application forms to fill in before I go for an interview next Wednesday. Suddenly I had a crave for Nasi Padang today, but it was not my day coz they ran out of beef rendang. Damn... Then I went to IT Co-op, and ended up buying more stuffs than I planned to. A 3 pin plug extension, a pair of hemisphere thingy for you to stick underneath your laptop to tilt it for better ventilation purposes (my laptop has been shutting down by itself mysteriously, must be the over-heating), and of coz the ink cartridge.

Then I spent my whole day applying for internships through the NUS Career Services eJob Center. Okay, maybe 'applying' wasn't the best word to use. It should be SPAMMING internship applications. I think I spammed almost 50 internship applications, just for today, which is almost equivalent to the total amount that I applied for the past 1 month or so since I started applying actively since the beginning of March.

Anyways, my mom keeps on saying that I couldn't get any internships coz I'm fat, which portrays an image of laziness, indiscipline, lethargicness, and the list goes on and on and on... Well, maybe she's right so I thought to myself that maybe it's time to do something. And I went for a jog just now. Here are some data to keep track on my progress:

Distance covered: 3.469km (just a mere estimation using google maps distance calculator)

Time clocked: 34mins 45secs (not close to any competitive time, but who cares?! after all it's just an unfit me trying to start exercising since i-don't-remember-when)

Weight before jog: 108.9kg

Weight after jog: 106.3kg

There must be some kind of error here. Although my weight fluctuates like the stock market prices, but 2.6kg weight loss after just slightly more than half and hour's jog, or rather "brisk-but-not-very-brisk walking"???!!! It's either my weighing scale is fucked up, which is rather new, or that I'm fucked up. But looking at my luck and aura, most probably I'm the one who's fucked up, and I hope that I'm fucked up (at least in this context). I shall experiment again tmr to ensure that it's no fluke.

Internships: A Pain in the Arse(nal)

Internships Applied (To-Date): 64 and increasing

Interviews Went: 7

Internships Rejected: 4

Internships Secured: "NAH-thing" a.k.a. zero = 0

Note: Internships Rejected is the internships is that I got rejected, not the ones that I reject after securing the offer (as if I secured any before, duh...).

I just wonder how many job applications will I have to send and how many job interviews do I have to attend before I finally secure my 'dream' job? Well, just keep on dreaming... Coz the day you stop dreaming is the day that you lose hope... The force is strong within you... Be strong, my friend!

I am fucked up

Yes, seriously, I am fucked up... When people are busy studying for the finals, which is just around the corner, I'm still applying for internships and going for interviews. Yes, you heard me... I am still applying for internships... and the day I stop applying for internship is the day that I actually secure my internship for the summer break (or even longer). 3 weeks more before most of the internship positions start. I thought I was being last minute when I started applying for internships in March, but apparently they are even more last minute than me.

Ok, I had this interview last Wed with a Marketing company... The one that asked about my CAP. Anyways, they told me that the results will be out by Friday... last Friday, but till now I haven't heard from them yet... It kinda makes me wonder why ppl in the business industry always don't keep to their promises... If u really don't want to hire, can you at least take the courtesy to inform me. If you don't want to deal with me, then just let the BBA Career Services Center know, and they'll change my application status from 'pending' to 'rejected', so I don't have to think about of you anymore.

Next interview on Sunday with also another Marketing company via skype video call. And I can say this was the toughest interview that I've went through. They gave me a situational question, i.e. "how do you promote fishball in China?". I was seriously stunned... After talking cock for sometime, I requested for time-out to regroup my thoughts, and they kindly gave me 3 mins for me write down what I should cock about for the remainder of the interview session. They were screwing me non-stop for almost half an hour. For everything I said, they just somehow had to screw regardless of whether my point was valid anot. Soon, it changed into something like a debate match, rather than an interview session.

I'm going for another interview tmr for an HR position. I just hope that everything goes well. Wish me luck...

Jacky Cheung Interview

Was just randomly surfing youtube the whole afternoon, then I came across this series of videos about Jacky Cheung talking about his latest album - Private Corner







And just to end this post on a good note, here's the MV for his main single of his latest album - 迷你 a.k.a. "Stuck On You". Hope you'll enjoy it! =)

I Could Write A Book

If they asked me

I could write a book

About the way

You walk and whisper

And look

I could write a preface

On how we met

So the world

Wouldn't never forget

Then the simple secret

Of the plot

Is just to tell them

That I love you a lot

Then the world discovers

As my book ends

How to make two lovers of friends

This was one of the songs that I performed for my Jazz Band Concert. A different version though. Hope you'll enjoy it.

Dark Clouds In The Sky

Today, I received the news about the results for a band competition, in which my band had went for auditions 2 weeks ago, and it was negative. This totally caught me by surprise and I'm really disappointed and devestated. I didn't expect the outcome to be like that as the judges comments were very good during the audition. They even mentioned, "It's between you guys and the other band, and it all boils down to the song choice during finals. Don't play safe, be more adventurous and daring" He really said it as if our band were already confirmed through to the finals. HA-HA. What a good way to approach CNY with such a heavy heart. This time is really "A Matter Of Heart" lo. Damn it! Later only did I find out that only 3 bands progressed to the finals out of the 30+ bands that took part. seriously wtf??!! 3 bands ONLY. Might as well call it the "Tom, Dick and Harry competition". The winning probability is 1/3, and if I was in 1 of the bands, I would bribe the 2 other bands and ask them to slip up during the finals and let me win. LOL. When there are more bands, it's not that simple anymore coz you don't know which bands are good and which bands are bad. I simply don't understand why they cut the finalists of the band category from 10 in the previous years to 3 this year. And the top 3 winners (means all of them) will receive prizes. Do the organizers even know what publicity and marketing is all about? There's only 3 bands in the finals and they can only attract F&F (friends and family members) of these 3 bands, which is quite limited. If they actually allowed 10 bands to go into the finals, they surely can sell more tickets and definitely earn much more profit. And considering this, I think they might even make a loss out of organizing this competition, and what good is this? !@#$%^&*(use your own creativity to interpret this code = DECODE)
But after thinking twice, this might be an angel in disguise. If my band is not in the finals, we wouldn't need to practice so hard for the coming weeks and sit back and relax. I can also concentrate and put more time on my studies, which I've made it one of my priority for this semester (I might even not drop my 6th module, which I intended to drop it due to the hectic schedule of the semester). As this is my final year, I would like to accomplish somethings in my uni life so that I won't look back and felt that I wasted a few years in uni without achieving anything at all, and winning a band competition was one of my goals. I had waited 2 yrs for a chance like this, and when at last I have a band that is competitive enough, fate has failed me again. This competition was our best bet, or at least my best chance of winning something in a band competition, but it seems that this dream will not become a reality after all. One of my members will be graduating this semester, but he'll be leaving sooner than expected as he has a lot of work to do for his wedding preparation. Yes, he's getting married soon. I wish him all the best in his wedded life and live happily ever after. Without such a vital member in my band, my band is incomplete. It's like a keyboard that doesn't have a spacebar, or like a Choir that is missing the bass section. Can the Choir perform? Of course, you bet. But it'll definitely sound not as good as a complete SATB choir.
Now I can devote my time fully between studies and my concert coming up in March. Do look out for details soon.